I am trying to be 3d artist and take it very serious (I guess) My goal is to work at some game dev industry. (Bethesda would be awesome)
I am specialize at animations. It's been 4 years since I started but I am afraid I am not developing at all.
I got problems with even basic anims. Can find good pose to start and can't see right dynamic in action to make it look good. Watching tutorials, analyzing reference. I can't see it anymore. What is wrong? I can't even animate jumping ball right and in job offers I see:great skill at that, great skill at this, 2 years of expierience in company. I will not mention that I know only Blender, ZBrush and Photoshop and they ask for Maya or MotionBuilder Motion Captures or whatever. I got confused. I don't know what skill is "good" what should I know to get the job or at least be popular freelancer. Can't make good models as well. I have problems with doing "likeness" or "portraits" Haven't draw from months. Maybe I am getting old? 24 years is time to sattle down not to have dreams... I should go to art school It looks like I can't develop enough by myself.
Some people just got sparkle, they just see stuff do little research and get it. I am fighting with myself for so long and can't find anything positive in myself. If I will loose creating I want rather die than live without it.